Dear Mother,
For the past two days I have felt a great despair and sadness—so much that I think if it goes on for a few days more, it may be very difficult for me to get rid of these things.
I don’t know what is going to happen, but I can’t help thinking that if I remain in this condition all the time and if I can’t ever be happy, it will soon be impossible for me to live. During these two days, in this sadness and despair, I had the idea of committing suicide. (Don’t be afraid, I won’t commit suicide; I am only telling You about my condition in order to let You know about it.)
There are thieves in the subtle world just as in the outer world. But you must close to them the doors of your thoughts and feelings as carefully as a prudent man bolts the doors of his house.These suggestions of sadness, despair and suicide come from them (the thieves of the vital world), because it is when you are depressed that they are best able to rob you. You must not listen to them—you must reject the wicked suggestions and become yourself once again, that is to say, my “little smile”.
January 9, 1933.
Some Answers From the Mother, Vol 16, CWM, The Mother.